I Want to Eat Your Pancreas

## The Movie

### Soundtrack

The soundtrack was nice. It's nothing too fancy, really. Nevertheless, I enjoyed all of the songs at the start at the end. I especially enjoyed the credits song, though. That was nice. Sumika's songs are always really good, and each song in this movie was really good

### Thoughts

I Want to Eat Your Pancreas follows the story of yet another loner boy and another conventionally popular and attractive girl. Maybe that trope turns you, the reader off, but it doesn't really matter to me. I try to review in a vacuum. That being said, I didn't expect this movie to be good at all. When I first witnessed the title, I could immediately tell this wasn't going to be the saddest anime at all. Someone was going to die. Yet, I didn't prepare myself for the level of emotional depth this movie had.

This movie is essentially about life and death. Sakura (the female lead) has pancreatic cancer and wants to live her life fully. She finds Haruki, a boy she really admires as they have differing views in how to live their lives. Haruki sees life as just a chore, going through it just for himself. Of course, shenanigans occur and they go through their lives together, making memories along the way. I really enjoyed their relationship. I loved every single scene they had together, from the cafe, to the market, to the hotel, and her house. Everything just felt so intimate, like they weren't holding back anything. They were acting true to themselves.

Of course, that is the main thing to take away from the movie. Live your life to the fullest, because you could die any day. I thought it would be as simple as that, kind of like a kids movie, where in that case Sakura would die of cancer at the end. Her death was revealed at the start, so it wouldn't be out of the ordinary to assume the story would be straightforward like that. That's not what happened, though. It's revealed at the end that her death was sudden; she was stabbed and killed by someone. I can't say I enjoyed going through this part, but I really love it. Without her death being sudden, this movie would be boring, after all. It just hits home harder to know she had lived her life to her fullest, thinking she would die a slow death only for it to be so sudden.

Then, I will say I almost cried. The scene where Haruki reads Sakura's diary is heartwrenchingly beautiful. The animation was amazing. It was like taking a peek into Sakura's imaginative mind, giving Haruki her final message. Maybe she knew that she would die suddenly. No, no one would be able to know. But her circumstances made her able to be able to say goodbye, in the event that she does. It's a beautiful scene that embodies the story's message of living life to the fullest. Also, she doesn't even tell Haruki to do anything; he already knew what to do. Beautiful. The writers could not have done it any other way. After that, they even threw another brick at me. Haruki asks permission to finally let everything out; to cry. That killed me, man.

Haruki's character is quite interesting. He's a person that's been holding so much love within him. You can see it in the interactions he has with Sakura. He's surprisingly attentive, for someone who apparently said he didn't care about anyone. To the untrained eye, their relationship doesn't really look interesting. It just looks like the cliche loner boy and popular girl archetype. But this movie clearly portrays the opposite. Haruki is a character with an immense amount of emotional depth. Maybe he doesn't know what to do with that, but that's why he met Sakura. Without her, he would've just continued on to a (in lack of a better term) depressing life. Together, they taught each other to live life to fullest. This sentiment is strengthened in the ending, too. Sakura's best friend, Kyoko hated him because she thought he wasn't good enough for Sakura. More than that, she hated him because he didn't tell her about Sakura's illness. You would think that Haruki would just leave it be, let her process her own emotions alone. But he wanted to live like Sakura did. He wanted to live with others because it's so much better. So, he asked the person who hated him the most to be his friend. That takes courage. Courage that only comes with love and understanding. I find that to be endearingly beautiful.

Overall, I Want to Eat Your Pancreas is a great anime movie. It's like eating a really good homecooked meal. It's nothing too complicated. In fact, I find it to be quite digestible. The art's also really good, the animation's quite fluid for an anime, too, which surprised me. This movie is one I would recommend to anyone, even if they don't watch anime. 9/10 Gem-Mid. Thank you.

I want to eat your pancreas.